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Alright so I’m supposed to be doing homework but… Check this out: If you removefrom me you’d get: ?   Would that be youme, meyou, youme, or meyou: ?   If that’s the case, then how do we get to youi: ?   Would that make youi 2 or would youi be as 1: ?   I hope that it’s the second and not the first, because the first only shows two, while the second shows one. I don’t know what I’m saying either…All I really know is that at least 2 of us just had fun…

Black America forgive me for I do not understand what you go through.. I understand the history, the culture, the passion, the plight…I have the skin color, the physical attributes, everything/all of it. But I am in a way…none of it. So I apologize today to you Black America, because for the past 29 years I’ve tried but have failed to understand what you have and what you continue to go thru. Unlike you, I have never faced oppression. I’ve never been judged purely on the color of my skin. Never have I felt that I needed to perform better to show that a Black Person could do it, I work as hard as I do because I always want the world to know that I was/am the best…I suppose my personality and who I am is based more on my confidence and ego than on the color of my skin… I’m free to say all of that and whatever I say because I’m an American and well…I fought for the right to… I think, feel, and know that it’s harder to be a person, a human being, a child, a sibling, a parent, a...

Put your fingers on the screen from the start….this is me, this my mind, FUCK it this is my heart… I’m gone type it you gone feel it..we gone be and fuck it! we gone kill it, this is mine, this is us this is we, this is me..this is he, who is confessing that he loves you, can’t you see?   Feel the rythm as it be, as it be, as it carries you to me, as it be as it be..put your fingers on the screen and see what I see, as I see you with me…do you see what I see? I am not perfecdt by any means, I am but a man who loves a woman, can you see, can you see? Touch screen is who I be, touch screen to touch me, touch screen to believe, touch and you will see that far apart is never what we’ll be.. So fuck it I’ll jsut type it..to the beat to the rythme to the heart to the mind to the spirit I love you you and sayint the never gets old..The hook says..iff you don’t love me by now…understand that that doesn’t apply to me..This is..Ha..understand that I can attempt sound like Barry W...

“I rock, you rock, yeah we rock hard…put your fingers on the glass ma, let’s see if we can  fog the windows up in this car..nah ma, no worries I ain’t racing, I’ve been pacin’, I mean  patient, kept my engine cool, careful not to slip the clutch, understand this is my mind, these are my thoughts and this..well this one is from the heart…” “ Celebrate it’s Friday sweetheart, that time of the week when I say the words that get your legs to part… ”          - .2dot A Customer Service Letter From My Heart 2 Yours: Dear Heart, I want to draw your attention if I may, draw your attention back to me and how I beat..It’s from me, the heart, his heart ,  that I speak to you, because as you can see, the mind and the mouth tend to get in the way at times. I feel that if I spoke to you, then there will be no deleting our message…I don’t know what it is or how to explain it to you, but I feel as if you get my message and you under...

I’m in “Recovery Mode”, read: So FN Dumb , then you’ll know how I feel right now and well…I like to vent my frustrations thru stories, here’s a story…let’s get!! I don’t know what I want to say, so I’ll just start guessin…   Location:  Downtown Los Angeles,  Los Angeles,CA Time: Just after Midnight, Present Day 2009   Character Profile: Romy Maven 26, Single, African American(Open Role)Ladies Man/The “Guy”, Recovering Alcoholic..Divorced, No kids…Ex wife loves but hates him for sleeping with sister and clients, Co-owner  of  social networking firm .2Dot Inc. , Born and raised in Houston, Texas. Family Background: Father is a former informant for the feds, mother works in “office cleaning”…You know what…yada, yada, yada, either I’ll come back and finish this part or I can just say I came up with on hell of a segway for: -Understand Slang to Understand the Story- Romy(speaking in a calm tone):  “Look, I’m sure than we can figanutha way ro...

Call it a “Continuation” of sorts..I’m venting at the moment so jsut sit with me… Character Profile: Sammie Wabenaugh 36 years old, Out of work carpenter and out patient drug rehab patient. See, Sammie got hurt on the job 3 years ago and while he thought he was properly ensured, he and his family learned that he was not, having to now depend solely on his disability check and the little bit of money that his wife brings in as a “temp” secretary who’s going back to work for the first time in almost 10 years. Having been a homemaker prior to that. Choosing to raise her kids and support her husband. A choice of “Family” as  her career, after the birth of their second child, Molly, the challenge of raising two young children, being a career woman and a wife to much for her at a young age. With all the stress of being the leader of the family and the nagging back pain that just never seemed to go away, ‘Ol Sammie developed an addiction to his pain killers, which mixed with his growi...

So…True Story: Gotta phone call today…got a phone call about my daughter Natalie(See Post: Dear World)”, seems as though justice really is blind…Fuck it, I think I’m saying..So..Once again I get to lose something that matters the world to me. Damn, I took a heart hit today. What your read below is what I do when I have a bad day, or my heart gets broken, this I cope when I am sad…Perhaps that’s sad, whatever, today I just don’t give a FUCK. Fuck You, if you take my daughter, fuck you if you think you know what’s best for her, and fuck you if thought that I didn’t care. Fuck you for thinking that her dumbass fucking mom really cares, HELLO, she’s a FUCKING BITCH, she just wants the money, don’t be fooled by the faces, check my daughters scares, you can clearly see them there. In her eyes and her heart are where the answers lay to “what’s best for her” and well yeah I may have my own problems, but none of my problems have been any of your courts…I say things a lot, that’s my problem....

In order to understand, you MUST watch both videos.   Stallworth had a blood-alcohol level of .126 after the crash, well above Florida's .08 limit. Stallworth stopped after the crash and immediately told officers he had hit Reyes. Police estimated Stallworth was driving about 50 mph in a 40 mph zone.   Gallo also was charged with driving under the influence causing injury, and driving with a blood-alcohol level over .08 percent causing injury with a sentencing enhancement that he personally inflicted great bodily injury. In addition, he was charged with fleeing the scene of a traffic accident causing death or injury.   If your read both police reports, the first difference or first thing that you’ll notice is that Mr. Gallo had a history of driving under the influence and fled the scene. While Mr. Stallworth “acted like a man”, pulled to the side of the road and alerted the police. He acted like a man they say, whereas Mr. Gallo has been called a “mon...

Could be because I’m a SUCH A FAN..Could be because I love sports so much..Could be because I love HISTORY so much…Hmm, Could be because I’m one of those people who can see/recognize when HISTORY is being made…Could the reason I ask so many questions be because you never ask…? Here’s my Q’s , Now it’s your turn…Come on…Turn around and show me that A: How many times has a former “ MVP ” coached his team to an NBA Championship? How many player/coaches have one the NBA Championship in their first season in that role? Of that number of coaches, How many were a “ Superstar "? How many were considered among, if not, the Worlds Greatest Player not only of their era, but in their sport overall? The A: was 1 you A: This is why I love HISTORY!! This is why the NBA is still & will always be FAN tastic. The world is getting watching the chance to see something that no one has ever seen before.  Kobe Bryant aka Bean aka Mamba aka  THE BLACK MAMBA aka  The 8th W...

“…and here we are it’s 2009 and we have a White House in which we have a Negro as President, surrounded and protected by a bunch of Jews…” Jack Levin, Criminologist That’s the world that we live in today, that above quote is what I heard on the news just now.  A “negro surrounded by Jews”, is that like a pimp surrounded by all his hoes? What the fuck America? Now we’re shooting up Monuments in the Summer time? There’s kids out there,  89 years old WTF is wrong with that dude?  Anti-Semitic or not, shooting up a museum goes way beyond “crossing the line” my children go to museums. What if little Maria and her family, who were at the museum today, had another question for that security guard. What if we had to rush more than the “Hero” & the “Villain” to the hospital? And…If that is his red “Hyundai then I’ve gotta call “Bullshit”, so now you mean to tell me that we have 89 y.o Anti-Semitic, skin heads, who shoot up museums in the middle of the day with a rifles, raci...

It’s “Thought A.M” and this is what I think… -Can an open “Can of Worms” be buried beneath the surface? -Is it possible to “Make Believe” on purpose? -When is it ever “Okay” to “Fuck-Up” on purpose? -Is it possible to do something on purpose by “accident”? -When is it “cool” to be the idiot? -How can you tell when an actor is “acting”? -How does one “practice” being “fake”? -How can a argument be one sided if neither person agrees? -Speaking of “One-Sided”…How “One-Sided” is Where’s Waldo? Think about it…we are supposed to look at the picture to figure out where Waldo is..but we never know what Waldo is looking for… -How the FUCK did Waldo end up in there to begin with? -Is Waldo on the Stuff? Is Waldo like Kobe, is he to “Unstoppable”? -is it possible to make a living by not being perfect? -Is “Sexting” Illegal if both parties consent and are over 18? -If it is legal, can someone “Sext” me and “teach me” how to do it? -What do you do when you know that yo...

*The ? is for you to fill in the missing _… I’m not sure if I’m going to school online because I see it as an “easy way” to get a degree, or because I see it as the best way to ask for help(Probably not the correct wording for what I’m trying to say, so please do not read too far into that). I’m going to school to earn my Bachelors in Art – History, because I want to know if there is anything in the past that can tell me why I am the way that I am now…At this point in my life I think that I am more concerned with figuring out myself and my thoughts than I am about learning anything else. I just want to learn how to help….Everything else in the world is well… EASY ..to me, I can learn anything by reading about it, doing it or watching others..I learned how to do that in Pre-School. What do I need to know to be “successful”in life? And when/how do I know if I am successful? Who will tell me? Right now, I already feel that I am successful, it’s 2009 and I’m still living, I’ve been thru ...

So I started my first course and on the first “homework assignment”, I had to answer questions based on the Chapters that I read. The book is called “Peak Performance” and is written in part by Sharon K. Ferrett. The questions were: After reading Chapters 1 & 2, What did you learn about yourself? How will your styles and preferences help you to be successful in college? Construct a one or two paragraph response to each question…Well… After reading the Chapter 1, this is what I came up with: I am an Introvert in my everyday life and an extrovert in my writings. I've always thought of myself as a "Peak Performer" even when I didn't know the correct verbiage or term. I still don't know what to make of my thought process, because I think that I am a creative & analytical person, who, based on previous experiences in life, has been thought of as a "directive" type. Almost every position that I've ever held in life has been in the "aut...

Follow Up on the above “Theory” Is it possible to only learn what I want to? I want to be a Motivational Consultant. I  want to be the best. I want to be so good that I am FAMOUS. I want to learn whatever I don’t know and need to know..I don’t know if there is a “Degree” for that or if there is an “actual term”. I know it’s a dream of mine, how do I turn that dream into reality? I want to learn how to relate my personal experiences in life, the things that I’ve learned and the things that I will learn to other people. I want to be paid a for that. I want a “career” where I can combine what I know  with who I am to help others.  I want everyone in the world to know that I am always willing to help. I want to show and teach that others that sometimes we make mistakes, I want to help others when they make mistakes of there own and fall down, I want peers who understand me and the way that I think. Does that make a writer, a philosopher, a psychologist, a sociologist, a per...

Is it the person of the their presence that we miss the most when a loved on is away? What hurts the more, losing someone or having to let them go?  A friend, a distant relative, a sibling, a best friend, a lover, even a pet. Who for whatever reason is gone or is “away” at the moment. I sit and wonder about things like this, I wonder how they’re doing, I wonder if they know that they are in thought..Funny- but-not-funny how we get the joke a person tells well after they’re gone and “unavailable” to tell it again. Funny the “tricks” that one performed that one time…Even with all of the “Technology” that we have today, nothing is better than when you have a few moments to share with those & that which is close to you. I asked my mom & sister what they thought about this and just like everything else I say to them, my questions were answered with questions and the only conclusion that they came up with is this: I NEED MEDS My mom feels that I have problems and that I use wor...

So I was cleaning out my Recycling Bin today and came across some thoughts that I had been meaning to throw away. Uncompleted pieces of work that I’ve erased from my mind, then I thought, why not just combine them into something to share with others…   > Parallel Thought.mid < Okay..I’m not sure if that above file will play for you or not, but it’s music..I kinda just wrote it and well it kinda sucks..but hey at least I wasn’t afraid to take another chance… --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I call this “A Quick 180” Written to “So Fly" Instrumental: By: A.Williams Intro : This is how fly I am, This is who I be, I said This is how fly I am, This is who I be, I said This is how fly I am, This is who I be, I said This is how fly I am, your girl chose me…   Hook : She chose me dawg, ya girl chose me, I said, check the message on your new PALM Pre, I say…I think the me...

Creatively I saw things, create and say things, sometimes silly things, the silly things that make me smile. I wonder how my pal, we shall, we did..that’s how, this one is new & now: I’m in a mood to create things, in a mood to create things..I’m a nerd with some words like ------> COW . Moo-Moo..who know, so shook &  I do and I can, will the lady have . 2 . Two is the magic number, 1 + 1 is 2 , 2 – 1 is 1 , if 1 and 1 looks better as 2 then why is 1 always trying to take away from 2 ?    -1 is what you’d be, –1 is what you see, –1 is who’ll be, –1 with no 1 to share 3 of the things on your mind…What makes 1 different from 1? Can 1 be better than 1? If you put 1 by 1 and compared 1 ? Would that 1 1 look like 11 which is 1 0 - -1 , even though I meant 1 x 1 , which looks like 1 x 1 which is = to 1 , but is not the 1 by 1 that I asked you to compare…Kinda like . 2 . equals 2 and 2 . ’s, . 2 . connects 2 and 2 . ’s, . 2 . ...

Dear World, Today I think I thought about killing myself…I saw the whole scene…I’ll save you all the glory details…I want you to think about what I said…what was on my mind?…I had my “car chase” finale, I was in the car that slammed into the wall at 180 mph …Straight through the windshield, directly into the wall…That last round in the chamber, the noose around my neck, the pills, the liquor..Any and every way possible I thought it and saw it today…I really felt the loneliness that is associated with the thought of suicide… I was just sitting here at my desk, listening to music & filling out forms (ugh) for the VA, and I kept seeing the words “ Suicide ”, “If you or any of your loved one’s”. Over and over again, on what seemed like every page that has to deal with Veterans. Repeatedly I saw the words…and at first I just shrugged it off like we all do…I even remember saying to myself “Not me”…I didn’t even want to think about it, me and that word would NEVER been associated…Jus...

Before I start…Have you figured out the      ? Ya wanna know what really fucking bothers me sometimes?? it really fucking sucks when there’s no one around to think with.  Not necessarily there to talk to, but I’m talking think… Where you’re there and you only say something when whatever you’re thinking provokes words. A short conversation lasting only seconds, but it hangs in the air, stand ing by to resume at any minute….Perhaps my main problem it the fact that sometimes when I’m writing I tend to drift off and say space space what’s on my {@^@} ? I just gave you 2 more riddles… I’ll give you two hints… I just told you one by telling you in pink & the other is > YES, I meant to type “ space  space”..I think I did it again as a matter of fact..okay really…If you look at it you’ll see that I meant to type space after I pressed space twice, I really thought you’d get it and read “say space,space,space.space..what is that picture…?..You ...

Let’s paint a picture with words, let’s use vivid colors to express what were thinking, let’s trac e a little and draw an outline around how we feel, let’s use bright colors to shine in our happiness, let’s use dark shades to conceal how we feel. Today let’s not follow the "”rules”, today let’s paint a “word picture”…Today the pe nc i ls , pen and brushes will have no use. Today I’m going to attempt to paint 2 “mental pictures” and I’ll be doing that by telling you how I feel. Here I am…Just about the “cross that line”… AGAIN … I saw the sign the first time..but I figured that ‘cause I’m M3, that warning was meant for others…Here I go doing something unpractical at a time when practically everyone is afraid of a peculiar fellow who practices staying perpendicular to the [_]…Right now I don’t know whether I should feel rejected, dejected, unhappy or upset. I do know that for some strange reason I’ve still managed to keep both  calm & upbeat thru it all…I feel that som...