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Over and Over, Through and Through

If you can't tell by now..I'm rejoicing!

No apologies!

I've earned this little moment. I've earned this night! It's not much, I didn't become a millionaire. I still have a long way to go. I still have a list to complete. I still have a hardship to get through, I still have to reach stability. I still have to adjust, I still have to adapt, I still have to learn, I still have a long way to go.

I still need a car, I still need a place of my own, I still need repair my credit, I still have to heal, I still have to recover, I still have so much that I have to do. But I've come further than where I started. There is much more building to do, but I'm slowly gathering the tools I need. I have deadlines that I've set, but those deadlines are according to my timeline.

I've gone from feeling as though I had no control, to recognizing that I had the control all along, even when I took my eyes of destination.

It took losing it all by allowing myself to lose focus in order to trust my inner compass to lead me along my journey.

The most important thing for me to do at this point is to not get in the of my own momentum.

Growth is still required. Changes still need to be made. Positive habits need to learned. Negative habits still need to be broken. I'm unafraid to admit that there are several personal improvements to be made. And as long as I have a day on this earth, I'm doing whatever it takes.

I want that life I dreamed of! I want to share that life with the people who at the very least deserve the fruits of my labor. I'm not stopping. I'm not giving up. I'm not going to start doubting now.

My heart gets what my heart wants!



#OverAndOverThroughAndThrough




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