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A lot of people ask me what it's like to be a Combat Infantry Vet. What's it like to go to war? What it's like knowing that at any moment you could die? And what the question I hate the most....Did you kill someone? For years I've tried to avoid answering other than saying, "I did my job". I was okay with that being the answer I gave and the lie that I've told myself to get through each and everyday since returning home. That was until the Department of Veterans Affairs denied my claim for Disability Compensation, stating that none of my issues/contentions were combat related..Hmmph..Who know that killing people for a living didn't qualify? That being the case...my honest answer, the honest truth, and my response to the VA: I usually try to avoid I was raised by parents whose only want for me, was to one day be grow up and prove to the world that the experience of truly being loved and truly being in love only elude those too afraid to risk encou...

{I NEED A LITTLE BACKUP} -Whew- Okay... -Ahhem- I'll sing these words to you over and over again if it means that for once they have any hope, any chance of eliciting any sort of a reaction from you, just so for once I'll be the first to know that what I'm feeling isn't just being felt by me, so need to know, need you to show that I'm not alone I swear I'll scream these words out loud if I have to in the middle of a crowd full of strangers, just for the slightest glance from you...just so you know..that I'm never  #LettinGo Sayin' Let's go! Let's go! Anywhere Let's Go! Anytime day or night it doesn't matter I don't care nah-nope just take me with you if you leave just don't leave without me, take me with you..whether by land hand in hand or on a lone raft at sea..anywhere in the world  you are I'll travel..just so you know I'll bust my knuckles, work my fingers to the bone, BREAK MY BACK FOR YOU just to ...

I see a person who lives by passion, motivated by pain, enamored with success tired of being held back by worry, tired of being dissuaded by fear, kept captive by the what if it doesn't instead of  embracing the possibility of what it does... No matter how you see me finish, just remember that I'm just getting started... FTARIUTH @ll X's Finta, fixin', and 'bout to on it all, formulating a plan to rewrite 48 Laws in less than 40 days which hopefully when flicked from the tongue flows as calm... Make sense...or make cents Note ?'s from hard leads in the face of rival subjectives, Suggestions/Choices Choices For Self or For Others Promote: Living/ Object: Fear of learning as the equivalent to Inability to Comprehend Keep: Going and Giving Questions: To ask 'if' No Answer Available: If words seldom seem to transition from thought to heard Always Felt: If one is possible, another is more than likely Two Phases Must Be Pa...

Isn't it amazing how your circumstances can change in an instant? One minute your outlook provides very little (if any) indication of improvement, the next minute you find yourself on a collison course with that which you had so tirelessly sought.. Funny really how things can change from one picture to the next... For weeks now, months, years really I have sought to prove of myself for myself, to learn from myself to learn more of myself, depending solely upon me to do/attain/have for me because I at one point I found myself lost in life, where I truly had no clue of who I really was as a person. I tried to and eventually became the type of person, the type of son, the type of brother, husband, and friend that I felt those around me wanted to be. I lived up the expectations of others, I went outside of my box and willingly placed myself in the multiple boxes that I allowed myself to placed in. Well, I think I'm closing to rediscover something beautiful I almost left behin...

"Smooth car". That was my initial thought when saw this whatever it is car. "A yellow...yellow something..." Shaking my head. " Yellow." Hand on face. Biting lip. "Yellow Ferrari. A Yellow, topless, Ferarri." 

That when instantly I had a decision to make. 

Hard top or convertible. 

First questions I thought: "Does it come in hardtop and convertible, or is just a convertible? If does come in both, is the top hard or is made out of leather?" Mind you, I never once until just now have even inquired about the cost. I couldn't tell you how much I paid for it, but I can tell you that it's more than what I paid. Gas mileage, technology, interior, insurance not at all considered. No need to test drive, not worried about making the payments, 'cause I'm buying this with one signature. 

The showman is giving me all sorts of details about the history, the tradition, the all that professional type yadder, and all I can really...

Should I do it FUCK 'EM they've had it coming to them from a while back so yeah I is: Self paid nigga doin' made nigga thangs, on the regular smoking trends for the funds, Self paid nigga doin' made nigga thangs on the FIB for the green for AHMES to lead the way Throwing yella diamonds in the air like I'm signed to Hov's team, whole team netting profits on a bracket bustin' theme, faded off the past leading futures is my thing, spinning tops is what I run through, ichimokui on my life shows I've broke trough clouds, no looking down! Self made nigga doin' made nigga thangs, on the regular smoking trends for the funds I'm just a self paid nigga doin' made nigga thangs on the FIB for the green AHMES I'm just a step away from fucking greatness, and if she'll let me I'll seed her with, luck nine months later a screaming successful baby boy, man I'm causing international percent change incidents when I lot the fucking ...

I've never been fired or "let go" because I was too talented, too good, too smart for the job...that is until recently... I've never experienced such confusion ever in my life..until now...and for the first time ever I do not know what to do... I allowed the ideas, thoughts, creativity of others to open up all the ideas, thoughts, and creativity I've been holding in for quite sometime..I placed my trust in them, I showed them the real me...and all I got out of it was hurt...hurt because instead allowing me to put my ideas to use and work...they stole them and had others carry them out...I feel so hurt..hurt when the old me would feel anger...a searing pain that I know will take time to recover from...When? So many ideas I had, so many things I put together..I thought we were a natural fit, a match made in heaven...turns out...My ideas were but I wasn't...I could have made this company an untouchable, incomparable, internationally recognized winner...i...

I ask- What is Love? Whatcha know about love beyond bond when things change,  When the hard rain comes, are you down enough to remain?,  What is Love,  Is love strong in the face of all disaster acting as a shield to shield lovers from heartbreaks pain,  as its written is as I how I say,  how I prove it, love, is no game,  What is love? What is Love? I loved her more in the morning love than any man could in their lifetime, like three days grace, she was a gift from the above in the chess game of love she played the queen to my knight, build a fortress by a lake I just might’ve had my queen not slayed me past fortnight, killed by her the one I wanted as my wife- Whatcha know about love beyond bond when things change, When the hard rain comes are you down enough remain, What is Love She keeps a smattering of torn hearts, scorned lovers, and missed connections, scattered across globe like a broken heart...

“Circumpolar Star” Written By: Amari L. Williams I could never measure my love for you on a scale of 1 to 10, Just keeping it 100 with you baby, my feelings for you INFINITE, You keep me straight laced up with your curiously amorous innocence, no disrespect when it seems I’m not paying attention or I show little interest in all the things you say, I’m just trying to time the moment I silence you with a kiss, mmm those soft full lips, I bet their sweet as honey, YES, forever etched, your in my head, fresh to death when you dress, f--k the rest you’re the best, I must admit, openly I confess, you’re light years above and beyond the next, can't compare your love to none, forever & eternity, all you’ve given me borders on too much, no way that I could ever repay you but offer the rest of my life for starts, from the moment you take my hand, on the our voyage we depart, our future a love filled expedition, here’s to you/me and a success...

I spend so much time thinking that when it comes to speaking I tend to stutter but I hope you understand that it's only because I care so much that I know never where to begin. Known as Amari to some, Who's Saying This to the few whom share my plan, feel the pain inside my thoughts and know my heartbeats for those lost and gone, share my soul, share my soul, share my soul until I die, may never apologize for staring 'cause I wonder oh so much, can I help because I can't help but not ignore those who may need help, every child needs a teacher even if the schools close their doors, every sinner needs a preacher, every hurtin' needs a healin', for you all I do my all, 'til I fall, 'til I fall I'm out to prove that I can improve the lives of all... I hope that one day my kids will understand that their births were the moments I truly felt most blessed, I hope that all the people I have ever met realize that just how much those conversations really mean...