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Creatively I saw things, create and say things, sometimes silly things, the silly things that make me smile. I wonder how my pal, we shall, we did..that’s how, this one is new & now: I’m in a mood to create things, in a mood to create things..I’m a nerd with some words like ------> COW . Moo-Moo..who know, so shook &  I do and I can, will the lady have . 2 . Two is the magic number, 1 + 1 is 2 , 2 – 1 is 1 , if 1 and 1 looks better as 2 then why is 1 always trying to take away from 2 ?    -1 is what you’d be, –1 is what you see, –1 is who’ll be, –1 with no 1 to share 3 of the things on your mind…What makes 1 different from 1? Can 1 be better than 1? If you put 1 by 1 and compared 1 ? Would that 1 1 look like 11 which is 1 0 - -1 , even though I meant 1 x 1 , which looks like 1 x 1 which is = to 1 , but is not the 1 by 1 that I asked you to compare…Kinda like . 2 . equals 2 and 2 . ’s, . 2 . connects 2 and 2 . ’s, . 2 . ...

Dear World, Today I think I thought about killing myself…I saw the whole scene…I’ll save you all the glory details…I want you to think about what I said…what was on my mind?…I had my “car chase” finale, I was in the car that slammed into the wall at 180 mph …Straight through the windshield, directly into the wall…That last round in the chamber, the noose around my neck, the pills, the liquor..Any and every way possible I thought it and saw it today…I really felt the loneliness that is associated with the thought of suicide… I was just sitting here at my desk, listening to music & filling out forms (ugh) for the VA, and I kept seeing the words “ Suicide ”, “If you or any of your loved one’s”. Over and over again, on what seemed like every page that has to deal with Veterans. Repeatedly I saw the words…and at first I just shrugged it off like we all do…I even remember saying to myself “Not me”…I didn’t even want to think about it, me and that word would NEVER been associated…Jus...

Before I start…Have you figured out the      ? Ya wanna know what really fucking bothers me sometimes?? it really fucking sucks when there’s no one around to think with.  Not necessarily there to talk to, but I’m talking think… Where you’re there and you only say something when whatever you’re thinking provokes words. A short conversation lasting only seconds, but it hangs in the air, stand ing by to resume at any minute….Perhaps my main problem it the fact that sometimes when I’m writing I tend to drift off and say space space what’s on my {@^@} ? I just gave you 2 more riddles… I’ll give you two hints… I just told you one by telling you in pink & the other is > YES, I meant to type “ space  space”..I think I did it again as a matter of fact..okay really…If you look at it you’ll see that I meant to type space after I pressed space twice, I really thought you’d get it and read “say space,space,space.space..what is that picture…?..You ...

Let’s paint a picture with words, let’s use vivid colors to express what were thinking, let’s trac e a little and draw an outline around how we feel, let’s use bright colors to shine in our happiness, let’s use dark shades to conceal how we feel. Today let’s not follow the "”rules”, today let’s paint a “word picture”…Today the pe nc i ls , pen and brushes will have no use. Today I’m going to attempt to paint 2 “mental pictures” and I’ll be doing that by telling you how I feel. Here I am…Just about the “cross that line”… AGAIN … I saw the sign the first time..but I figured that ‘cause I’m M3, that warning was meant for others…Here I go doing something unpractical at a time when practically everyone is afraid of a peculiar fellow who practices staying perpendicular to the [_]…Right now I don’t know whether I should feel rejected, dejected, unhappy or upset. I do know that for some strange reason I’ve still managed to keep both  calm & upbeat thru it all…I feel that som...

  Spazz Out & Dance with the world that’s what I want to do. I want to BOUNCE myself off the fucking wall right now.. candy bars & S|||P|||A|||C|||E|||D out * Stars *    I swear my biggest phobia is people not knowing who I ARRRGH ..Whatever…I see myself as myself standing on the edge of the edge..one false step off this ledge and I may tweak my ankle, which only cause a greater delay to  the start of this journey up the flight of stairs that lead to the door that opens the windows deep within the halls of my mind…Scratch that thought & scratch those words …”Nothing that I ever say is real, nothing I do means anything…”. Wait it…no…it does…How do I know? Hmm…Could be because I know that I make some of the words up as I go along…Huh? IT just said something to M3...something like “Boom Chooga-Wookie, Wiikiie-Wiiike Chill”. Laugh if you want, but that crazy little sentence is just another thing that keeps me chill . So chill should read “Boom Chooga-...

May these sheets of paper fly, I’m filling in old lines and giving new “clues”, I’ll leave them along the path of the journey not that has yet to begin. It’s me today, and my thoughts are “checking in”.  I’ve got a few things to say today people and I will not be ignored.  Time to be a little “real”, so all pussy faggots must go …Seems someone at the VA wants my attention..Well, okay Mr. Kruse you’ve got my attention…LET’S GO: To that bitch-faggot-pussy-motherfucker who keeps sending out the “reply” emails for EVERY company in the world – FUCK YOU – and that comes not only from me, but from everyone else in the world who writes a letter and gets back one of your shitty responses.  No Sir, you DO NOT get a today…You don’t get “Thank You” and you certainly will not have your letter saved in my “Happy Letters” mailbox… FUCK YOU ..Put my letter in the name next time, SPELL my shit right next time..It’s AMARI …Is that too much to ask?  Can you make an effort to ensu...

Today has to be to have been one of the worst days of my life. Today I found out that I’ve lost my words…imagine the amount of PAIN i am in, l 0”0 k at that, I didn’t even CAPTIALIZE I …I’m already going thru so much shit in my life right now…Still waiting on my Military Benefits, still looking for others who are waiting on benefits…To lose my WORDS on top of                                                                  THAT My words were all that I had left…My book, my lives’ story, my hopes, my dreams…All of those things were tied to those words..Fuck! ! ! < That is what I have to cap of my week…with all that I’ve found out. Like how I manage to do just...

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I feel like I am on an entirely different page right now, I feel as though I am in my “Twilight”  right now. See I have this theory, well I think I’m live this theory. I’ll get to that “theory” in a moment, first I wanted to start with something that I like to call: A Series of Confusing Words I’m going to write a series of confusing statements using random words that I think exist…no seriously, I’m warning you that I’m about to not starting to make sense.Whaaat? Never mind, keep reading…see --> I can write slow enough for you to sound out the words <--- all I’m saying is STOP SAYING WHAT YOU’RE READING OUTLOUD ‘cause I swear that I’ve already told you that I’m making sense… *PAUSE* *PAUSE* *PAUSE*, gotta stop thinking out loud, that or stop typing the words that my eyes see me saying…Yeah I know that makes “US” 2 Confused  & You the 1 l 0^0 king at the 3 numbers on the page. We’ll continue after this message: Back to the confusion shall we, we sh...

I suppose that I should start this letter by thanking you for taking the time to read what I have to say, but I’m not going to do that. Not because I want to be rude, but because this is something that you need to hear this former soldier has to say. And before you check my military history I’ll admit that I did in fact make some mistakes. I apologize in advance for those, and if given the opportunity I‘ll be more than glad to address them.  But for now I feel that there is something about OUR military that I need to get off of my chest. The current mental preparedness, evaluation, monitoring and treatment of OUR troops is an absolute travesty. The way that the mental side of the soldier is handled is the biggest mistake in the history of man. Right now we care more about how we treat captives than we are about Pvt. Smith., the pictures and video show the gory side of war…HBO has a show about what it’s like inside of a hospital in a war zone, but they don’t have a show about the ...

Okay so I get it now NOTHING that I do is right, I understand now that everything that I do is wrong. Every decision that I make. I know this because my wife was nice enough to tell me, her words were pretty sharp and to the point. I do not make her happy, and I am indeed a part of her daily stress. NOT a relief like I thought that I was, I am more of a burden than a relief of burdens. Awesome, That’s so cool. I’ve got to say I glad that at least she had the nerve to tell me, unlike well I guess anyone else in the world. I suppose that after all these years she knows me better than I know myself.  I feel sooo awakened and refreshed with this news. At a time when some people would be infuriated and full of anger, perhaps even rage. I surprisingly am not. I’m not happy nor am I sad, I kinda feel like the band-aid that was covering my scab of life has just been ripped off, even took a few hairs off. Please excuse me if I jump subjects while writing this but I’m just “letting it all ...

Did you get that M3SSAG3 now AMERICA? And if you got the message can you please let us Veterans know if you’re ready to understand. 5 Soldiers, 6 Soldiers really because even though we should be outraged at what this young man has done, we can’t be that way right now. Not when 6 families have just been informed that they’ll never get the chance to hug their loved one’s again. More than just 6 lives when you think about, I can’t imagine the total number because I don’t know any of them, I am however related to them in some way shape or form by the Creed that we all take when we join the military and I feel I have a connection with the soldiers that we’ve lost today because I’ve been there so I know what it’s like. That incident that happened today simply reflects all of the similar “incidents” that have once soldiers have gone home. The amount of daily pressure that we are under over there pail in comparison to the amount of pressure we face everyday when we’re at home, but the mental s...

I just found out that it’s: National Police Week, and now I’m hoping that one of you .’ s out there joins me and  doesn’t do anything to mess it up. Don’t be the one who kills a cop this week, don’t be the one that does it by accident or intentionally , and seriously to the following OFFENDERS : - middle aged guy , DO NOT go out and get drunk this week and  then crash into a cop on your way to another bar, and a – FELON ,Can you wait until NEXT WEEK to  “pull your strap”  and “ BAD COP ”, that cop who treats what he does as “just another job” and not as a commitment to protect & serve the community. As a matter of fact I’m “CALLING ALL COPS” ,Can ALL COPS EVERYWHERE just take a break on respond to any & all calls for a week & let a real POLICE Officer take the next one ...I mean can the Police just get the chance to stop holding his breath this week? Just for this one week, I’m sure it can’t be that hard..I mean if you have to do something, keep ...

Let’s Start with the definition( http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/promise ) 1 prom·ise Pronunciation: \ˈprä-məs\ Function: noun Etymology: Middle English promis, from Latin promissum, from neuter of promissus, past participle of promittere to send forth, promise, from pro- forth + mittere to send Date: 15th century 1 a : a declaration that one will do or refrain from doing something specified b : a legally binding declaration that gives the person to whom it is made a right to expect or to claim the performance or forbearance of a specified act2 : reason to expect something <little promise of relief> ; especially : ground for expectation of success, improvement, or excellence <shows considerable promise >3 : something that is promised   Now my Adaptation : I promise to always write something for you if you promise to always be the one who can read me. I promise that my words will never be used to hurt you, if you promise to tell me when ...

  “.2..2.www.2dot” My new blog site is gonna be crazy .2dot it’s where I’ll say  all these lame things like .2.   Have I told you lately about my “day dreams”? .2. Yeah I know, some of  my writings say the same things .2. but new words are such rare thing .2. One day an R8 will be my “ play thing ” .2. All from My Thoughts and random sayings .2. That I keep cool in my locked “Brain Thing” .2. I must admit however that I’d give up on this daily .2. But that’s not how God made me .2. All my failures and lessons have are what lead me .2. Come up with this saying .2. I know it’s uncanny & a little crazy .2. But something keeps telling me that when you leave here you’ll still be saying:  .2dot …,;:’``’—>|<—‘``’:;,…

A Collection of Musical Thoughts: Anybody got a lighter or a match that I can strike ? I’ve got a few words to share, yet I’m sitting in the dark haven’t got a light..If you do, I’m gonna need it  soon as I’ve just been told that my 3 minutes of stage time began 5 minutes ago, Hmm…is that why that guy keeps waving at me from the back of the room? I thought he was just trying to tell me that my time was overdue…   I enter the studio every night just before midnight, I use the side entrance ‘cause I know that’s what she’d prefer. She’s my little secret and I’ll never let her go..all the other dudes keep tryin’ but I’m the only one that can get her to BLOW …I give her my all and will to my death just so that she’ll always know that she’ll forever be a part of my mind, body and soul. I don’t know where I'd be without here, she’s gotten me thru some of the hardest times, some of the strangest places and some of my longest nights..Damn with her I know what Love is ..I love he...

Written to STUNT HARD by Lil Wayne & Drake:   PUT ME IN COACH. The CHAMP wants In Let me get ‘em coach, let me hit ‘em I’M THE MAN!!! Well hello there..why are you just standing there? Come on in…No need to be afraid to come in this area, I took the hard hat warning down a long time ago…so see it’s okay…You have nothing to worry about, EVERTHING AROUND YOU is real here …yeah I know you’ve been told that before but you’ve gotta at least try to believe me. I’m going to make you as comfortable as I am…it’s the least I can do since I’m the one who asked you com come here in the first place…and I guess since it’s part of what I do when I’m writing I guess it’s time that I say something that’s not supposed to make sense. Ah, now I’m ready to write, now I’m ready to put some ink on the page today. Today I want to talk about words like I’m talking about a sport, I wanna my way thru a paragraph today…Give Me the DAMN Comma…I may even use a tr 1 ck or two al 0 ng the way…I...

I told  a story tonight on Twitter(that’s crazy isn’t it)…and I wanna talk about it like this is my “Post Performance Interview”: With all the lights and cameras > eeSI < just finished working on something I dreamed about the other night and sat around for two days trying to figure out how to get the word out. I told everyone that I knew to tell everyone that they knew and hoped that the word would spread that way and then WHAM, it hit me…I could tell my story by telling a story on Twitter. See THIS IS HOW BAD I WANT TO TURN MY DREAM INTO REALITY , this is how I get Diddy to want to be on MY Friends List …Are U…-^`->Red - - - - E ?   Okay so it's that time that I told you about I would tell(lol) you how ? you and well I guess we should go ahead and get started. :One Hundred and Forty Characters at a timeThe best music to write to can be found at www.whossayingthis.blogspot... and YES I know that I keep "Plugging" my page but you should.19 O...

LET’S->LETS>LETS…Let’s get a little naked…let’s get a little France…Nah wit all that fakin’ baby…I’ma get you out them pants…I’ve been way to patient lately & almost missed out on my chance...Hell your man will probably hate how I get it shakin’ in his bed… I hear you asking me, begging me, & telling me  you need it…What with all the calling and the texting, how the hell is this a secret? I know how you want it and I feel it just the same… shit ..the weather outside is perfect for some PLAYING-IN-THE- RAIN …or maybe the…shower..anyway you want it my flower…you can show your super power as your ridin’ the waves of my thighs..maybe arch back a bit..ooh baby, the way you bite that lip... makes me tense a little bit as I position and sit…now it’s time for someone to see what I can do…from behind…is that what you were after when you sped thru that last chapter of: “Amari’s: Beds, Bedrooms, and Eyes”..oh that name?         ...

FUCK It..I know what I said y’all, but fuck it I’m still here..gotta be, who would tell you what I like to hear?..I think that we all know what in the HELL (?) you just WITNESSED , I mean to think you saw the greatest when you TELL YOUR FRIENDS you didn’t..It’s a shame, who’s to blame…Shit Kobe had a secret…I think it’s funny oh so funny when WE GREATEST tend to PLAY with all the lessers see who pay to $ee me(?) me play, how I play it’s okay mom I’m not worried I know your a T-Mobile ‘call away.. What did J 23 say? who’s that may I say? It is I, and I say: Heeeee’sssss back ain't I fine, ain't I great? Did I stop or did I quit? I thought I waited just a bit, took a chance on wonderin’ if you cared a little bit…Even for that little bit...Now sit... My man, my girl help me wonder thru this world..yeah I did...I think I started a new trend , just to push my product into the deepness and depth of YOUR MIND.  It’s not crazy, I’m just lazy…Why go out and look for(what? you ma...