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Okay, I’m Sorry

Okay so I get it now NOTHING that I do is right, I understand now that everything that I do is wrong. Every decision that I make. I know this because my wife was nice enough to tell me, her words were pretty sharp and to the point. I do not make her happy, and I am indeed a part of her daily stress. NOT a relief like I thought that I was, I am more of a burden than a relief of burdens. Awesome, That’s so cool. I’ve got to say I glad that at least she had the nerve to tell me, unlike well I guess anyone else in the world. I suppose that after all these years she knows me better than I know myself. 

I feel sooo awakened and refreshed with this news. At a time when some people would be infuriated and full of anger, perhaps even rage. I surprisingly am not. I’m not happy nor am I sad, I kinda feel like the band-aid that was covering my scab of life has just been ripped off, even took a few hairs off. Please excuse me if I jump subjects while writing this but I’m just “letting it all out”, that and it’s kinda cold in my living room, I think it has something to do with my heart just being broke…to be told that all of your positive thoughts and energies are interpreted as constantly being sarcastic and uncaring are a real eye opener. Now, as I should, I feel personally responsible for everything that goes wrong in this house and any of the negative energy. My dogs show more love and affection than I do, I do not except blame, I do not set a good example for my children, I need to “volunteer” more because apparently I am too selfish. I ask too many questions and I should not want to know what others are thinking, it is also a bad thing to want more than a one word answer when asking about ones’ day. It’s nice to know that I am always running away from my problems, I guess that’s part of what makes me a quitter.

Well I suppose I should counter her argument with one of my own so:

You’re so right, you are right once again and I am wrong. What was I thinking all of this time. Just like this whole writing thing I seem to do everything wrong, your pep talk confirms what I thought. Thank You for that, I kept telling myself that something special was going to happen this week and there it was. See I knew that something positive was going to happen for me and WOW, right there in front of me. I apologize, I apologize…I should’ve seen this sooner, but I was soo blind with my dreams and all. Once again, I’ve made the mistake.

I can see know that you really should be with someone who is nothing like I am, I wish nothing but the best for you and I want to forever Thank You for letting me know that you will FOREVER be my FRIEND.2.

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  1. AnonymousMay 13, 2009

    Looks like you had a rough night. ttyl

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