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Nerves…

They say that ones’ success can must be measured by their actions and efforts….I say: Measure me by actions and efforts and you’ll only find that you come up short EVERYTIME.

 

Yeah, I know it’s been awhile and yeah I know what I said..BUT…I’m about to embark on a journey the likes of which very few have attempted, about to travel a road navigated ONLY by those willing to take a risk. And the best part is I get to do it with the other part of my creative genius. What will come of this trip?? What kinds of things will we find around the corner?? Man, have you ever just had that childhood feeling of excitement/fear? That feeling right before you jump?? Looking down over the edge, seeing all that is below? The world looking like it fits right into the palm of your hand, as it passes by.The way your heartbeats, the taste of the wind as you begin to “let go”..That’s what I have at this exact moment, that’s how much this dream means to me. The possibility of unimagined success, the risk of near fatal failure which will it be? How will it be determined? In the end will all that I have done leading up to and beyond this point be “measured”? Will I myself have MEASURED UP?

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