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4Ever Loved

What if I told you all you need is hope to live your dreams? What if I showed you? What if I shouldered all the load? Would you believe? All your worries, all your fear, all your anguish is my pain...                       Tick tocking my way through some ordinary thoughts, scenes of loss, stings of death, pangs of misery all around How can I heal? How can I help? How can I give more of myself? What else is needed from me in this world? What else is needed from me in this world? I'm wondering loudly about tomorrow, but tommorow's a long ways from today, wondering if I give you all my energy, will you allow to quietly absorb all of your pain, If I sacrifice my wants, will that satisfy your needs, If I promise to keep pushing forward, will at least consider following the path I leave, Solemnly swear to you my open heart, hand-in-hand, I gotcha back, bet as long as I have a breathe left in these lungs I'm

Inhale, Exhale

Uh-huh... Pass me that lighter.. Now turn me up a bit..                       "Click, click, click, click" "Inhale, exhale Inhale, exhale Inhale, exhale" Yeah I'm ready in tha tent time to flip off the suit slide soft cross sheets key 'em chillin off the loop in the fridge 'til I'm ready for that alphabet soup off the sauce in the pan if you get then you hand fail to follow then no cup for two my friend time ta Click, click, click, Inhale, exhale, Inhale, exhale, Inhale, exhale Soon as I spark it baby we goin' Waldoff, , soon as I light it we goin' Woolworth, , soon as I fire it up we taking off, so take it all gripin' grape til the papers tall token golden flakes in all drips seeing sugar walls wide as rulers whoatmosphere is thick gettin' looser by the foot Ajustawinner by the yard while they choking off my soot I'm getting closer to catching a bag full of falling stars buy

Impulse

                      Soooo Confucius that it makes wonders match... Pain is only temporary while joy lasts forever they say misery loves company I say etcetera etcetera So gone off so don't excuse me if my focus is too tuned and I forget to provide clarity but for none I gives a hoot just a hack about the placement of another's boundaries in my scene frame-less scraps of knowledge architect stores one always in the standby cupboard case of if it's all about steps closer and closer as I move pushing ever forward towards crossing the threshold of excellence auto rejecting all outside that |parameter| no hope no belief that's the rack, it's eat 'till my tummies full from the table of the highest honor or leave a plate of needless scraps for the fools in alley of my past to ponder over strive or starve - analog attempts to extrapolate my + digital connection to success without = expectation leads to digits wrung into ex

Alone

  Ss-Ss-Sometimes I'm all alone, with these demons, feel 'em watching, Waiting for me to fall, once again, I see 'em plotting, My life is a constant bowl of equal circumstance & conflict, Contemplation of misery or memory confirmation, Held up in the midst of turmoil using joy as my only outlet, In my head I see a gathering of enemies friends and family my end dealt by the same pair of dirty hands that once cared for me, fatal outlook, Heart for you to diagnose in the place your secrets dwell, Laying it all on the line, for mine, give me peace or give me hell, Ss-Ss-Sometimes I’m wanderin', wanderin', wanderin', all alone in this world Fighting with my back against the wall, Against these demons for the throne, I give my all 'till I fall Epee thrusts for ethics cause, I give my best, give my best, give my best for it......:ALL: Forum my epic efforts cryptically, dispensing newly found resolve, without pau

CREATIVE REALITY

IMAGINE.   Imagine it all. Imagine not if you can't...nah...IMAGINE and I'll swear you'll see you could.   Circle of MUST, Square of CARE   The same old thing, just-just uh'me and my same old dreams, me and my tired thoughts, me on how I feel versus the seeds, growth through victory, stiff arm my way pass doubt dealing defeat a bit of bitter lathered kick blocking low and swinging wide connectin' knockouts on repeat I win the most, sprinkled scantily gladly I take the reigns of success while sailing life through all storms, good with the bad mixed mood seas of salties range my peeps happy-happy joy-joy or :('y doin' it for my team wit no chains only αδάμας in our rings I@y@ Imagine' if: THIS = THAT THAT = WHAT WHAT = WHO WHO = YOU YOU = ME See it. Feel it. Say it. + Belief is how I manage to beyond, what others perceive as improbable or impossible is simply a matter or worth in my self estimation. I'm making scents for my Beans & Brew, blaz

Just YlelolMlu

Sit back, relax, and breathe I'm just an ordinary man performing the extraordinary  -Humph- Just'uh Just'uh being who I am, Just me being who I am, Just me being who I am, Just up ta always being the one they need when you fail to Y ǝ o q u, I'm you in the moment it's all on the line, I'm you when you rise, for the team stay clutch mode [ON] OFF and prepared for hell when it's time, All I'm asking you to do is apply what you know to everything you dream, All I need you to do is imagine that it's possible...'nah mean? All I'm telling you comes from everything I know, everything I've done is everything I show, never lead you wrong if you follow me, you'll always make moves forward simultaneously, connected at the joint wires dangling, All I'm asking you to do is BELIEVE IN ME A .lways M .e A .nywhere R .egardless of I .fluence Just believe in me, that's all I'm really askin' Just trust I'm always ready for th

Never

Never lettin' go, Never shall I give up, Never shall I give in, I'm just too damn tough, Love me now or keys hand, Know heart, know reason, If life ain't about the hunger then my friend why you eatin' Can not hang on my level if you've never reached for stars, If you've never lived the struggle, then you'll never bare the scars, writing ballads on the wall reveal my heart, show my cards Huuuuuuhhhhhh.. So amazing is THIS-world-thank you God! Amazing what I'm doin', stay amazed is your charge, Amongst us ask not, Who is brave, Trust for he /^\ho is brave is also he who answers the call,  Fear not or know one, for all a man, immortal forever is my soul Admit it, I've been about that life, askewed, and back a battle tested vet from rooms board to grounds of war, scenes happiness eschewed   through the shine of the suns rays to the darkness of the storms, I've torn apart all my ene

PhotoFinishThoughts

I know that you are mad at me right now, and I apologize once again. I'll apologize a ten million more times if you'll just listen to me..just listen to me for once instead of just hearing me ya know? Like for real all I needed was you, so all I did was for you. Even if it didn't appear so. That how much I loved you. Which is why I can not help but responsible for your broken hand, I feel equally ashamed about breaking your heart, and being the cause to any pain that you may ever have, had, or will have. I really thought that I knew what was best, when all along I should have listened to your voice of reason. I'm sorry for it all. But what I need to know is what we do next? What direction? Which road? Which path? I know, I know...it's was't you it wa s me, I screwed up, I've made mistakes, I caused all the problems...but I swear I thought that I was doing the right thing. I thought I had it all under control.  Building towards and attaining success for

daUze

Live or die. *I tell myself* Deep in thought I realize. It's always life or death. *That* Deep inside my feelings hide. Cry for help. I do, I do, I do. Yessinknow *you're the only reason* Why? *I made a choice.* To live for once and be no others. Life. Without limits expectation opens roofs, I'm almost half as nice on paper as the chosen One, Who speaks the truth, dialect just like my Father leaves a fair share searching clues, gift enough photos for 'em and expect to leave roots, I need a suit head to profit while I kick it, no shoes on meet feet no shackles on my arms spinning heads around the globe life (of a) rover wit so laser beam, make copies of the scene and watch the loyal support the team, my pop & squat weights heavy on the shoulders of the fiend .iLIVE| my 1LIFE| forever. @daUze@ when I speak. ? Who's S aying This ?

Random Favors Open Doors

For the past few days I have been trying to figure out how to ask you for this one favor and one favor alone. But I haven't the slightest clue of how to ask in you such a way that you'll get without me having to explain to you the why & the reason... So I'll try yet again... I need a really huge favor.  (BTW) I am having a celebration soon...and well....I was wondering.if I send you an invitation wills uoy atttend? That's later, but for now here is my favor: Maintain your sights on all that you visualize as real and proceed forward only in that direction which places all that you seee before within your tenderest of holds. And do so at your pace and your pace alone.

National Champs

  All my Killeen Revolution if you with meh PUTCHO HELMETS IN THE AIR, If ya with meh, If ya with meh, PUTCHO HELMETS IN THE AIR! On Saturday it's goin' down and you know them Rockets scared, If you Revo stand up, If you Revo stand up, Getcho mouthpiece in and strap them shoulda pads on, Strap them shoulda pads on, Strap them shoulda pads on, Throw that K up in the air and rep that 2-5-4, They ain't ready out in 'Bama for that Bell County Stomp, If ya with meh, If ya with meh, Tear these motherfuckas up! Tear these motherfuckas up! Tear these motherfuckas up! Check- National Champ on the line so it's 20105 A.D any Rockets in the way is catching hits sticks on the fly in a EA sports game way, drag them niggas in the river for the ring Revo rides, lights out orders issued to #40 (aka) Father Time! Bring that trop

I'm About Ta Blow Up

I'm About Ta Blow Up by: Who's Saying This                       I'm about ta blow up (Clap, clap, clap)  Say I'm about ta blow up I said that I'm about ta blow up I'm about ta blow,  I'm about ta blow, I'm about ta blow up! I don't give a fuck about them no life biatches stalkin' me on the threads, Bitch #IMABOUTTABLOWUP how I mean it cup Red, grip ingrained helmet off flo back diggin' in, Rich boy Cali board certified product Real dropped from the gums my seed invades the hearts of the weak in a spring is to secrete as flood her river overflows when I'm in bed sorta peep, over This sick BlindBeat Who has 'em throwin' up arms in defeat, while them girls I used ta fuck wit wrists at risk of deep tissue rip, Scrreeetchh and pump tha brakes on ya Corolla when a Ninja burns the 'crete, pose unique when it comes to the handeye so fucks with my stand strong and find ya

Three Rules of One

Ever since the idea hit me as a child, my has been to buy beachfront property somewhere along the coast of San Diego, California and building a house with walls that open so that every night I can fall asleep to the sounds of the sea. Purchase a sports franchise or two and run one of the world's most successful companies ever. All while giving back, paving new ways, and providing an avenue of forw ard. I held onto that plan throughout my life and not once have I ever considered any alternate. I couldn't, though I admit there have been a plethora of moments where a review of the steps taken has been warranted. Never a single day where "I'll settle with this for now" or "Maybe it's not possible" prevailed over my pursuit. The end result has appeared to move farther into the distance, but never into the abyss. I have examined the results achieved by those before me and those along side me, and have drawn the conclusion that if it were possible for one t

All I Know

Step One:   http://www.soundclick.com/bands/default.cfm?bandID=1108668 Step Two: Read while listening to songs 1-4 (Songs must play in order) Step Three: Sit back and mid-day groove one Final Step: TURN THAT ISH UP!! GiiiiiiiiiYou hold the key to my heartiiiiiiiiiiiirrMy BabyrrrrrrI love yourrrrrrrrrrllllllllllMore & Morellllllllllllll ALL I KNOW from This All I want and I care for's throUgh- that's it So for the rest of my life it's hand to heart ring on finger, Kiss after kiss no grass grows greener, Is what it is when I say this shit: Fuck the rest only make love to the Mrs. Real talk 365 days and nights, Who can't love no bitch that ain't his wife, When I hit them gears she's right by side, As I make these mills WE paid for life Saying All I -all I wanna know Is you wit(h) that boo? All I wanna do is Honor you All I wanna do is Love ya too All I want Infinity & Beyond Is to be...with..you All I wanna do All I wanna do A

Truly iMind

Isn't it amazing how your circumstances can change in an instant? One minute your outlook provides very little (if any) indication of improvement, the next minute you find yourself on a collison course with that which you had so tirelessly sought.. Funny really how things can change from one picture to the next... For weeks now, months, years really I have sought to prove of myself for myself, to learn from myself to learn more of myself, depending solely upon me to do/attain/have for me because I at one point I found myself lost in life, where I truly had no clue of who I really was as a person. I tried to and eventually became the type of person, the type of son, the type of brother, husband, and friend that I felt those around me wanted to be. I lived up the expectations of others, I went outside of my box and willingly placed myself in the multiple boxes that I allowed myself to placed in. Well, I think I'm closing to rediscover something beautiful I almost left behin

Pathway

-- Boy oh boy, man oh man....This whole attempt at being an author thing is something SERIOUS! I mean like hot damn! Oh shit fa'real fa'real, muh'muh'muh-MOTHERFUCKING fa'fa-REAL(?) YES I AM! Will I make it another page or will I crumble it all up and throw it away? Worth vs. Self > or = to my type & spray, that be my write & say. -- To put my life on Word thus into words for others to observe, requires a sort of loosening of nerve combined with the acceptance that I am running the risk of ridicule, and above it all letting people that I know..those who know me, and that those I don't know at all, inside of a place that I for most part I've kept to myself for the past 32 years. This may turn out to be my toughest thing I've ever done in my life and God knows..I have dealt with some very tough shit before, but shit God also knows the real shit I've been dealing with on a daily for the past few months away from this book that at this

Just the Same

Just the Same If you can't understand my efforts then you'll never get my gains, Bitch-Bitch-Bitch, I know you hear me, I'm so Rich-Rich-Rich in 50 ways, > Money on dresser, take this tip and keep the change, I'm on a Bad Meets Evil clip stay flipping scripts like Tyler P,  > Amari sticks to ownership stacking chips and breaking banks, acting bad in the lab, paranoid of the fake, common man thinks I am, but doesth not know me thus not knoweth the one known for dropping divine shards of matter grey, spray painting all the walls 'til the world see my face  >  Who's Saying This I wash down all the hate with a shot of Gatorade, haters make me tons of profits, picture perfect pause for frame, Cameras click-clack clock it I'm 100 miles ahead You will never touch this level if I put you on the plain, if you can't understand my reason you will never share my pain, fuck it then it's fuck you now, face down ass up false hope i

Dear Lord, A Prayer

Dear Lord, All know is all I ask, so question dear Lord what the fuck is happening to man? Dear Lord, Grant me a lifetime of freedom unhindered by the color of my skin, Black, white, or other I seek for all liberties all the same, In the name of Trayvon Martin I feel society is to blame, lax gun laws lead to murders everyday, cut police budgets lead to vigilante ways, and if them take the borders cartels will run our states leading to a war right here home that we may never win, I say enough with Repubs and Democrats only interested in pay, Greed is taking over, MAN WHAT HAPPENED to the theme? Remember Team U.S first before the money, cars, and rings? Used to be about teaching kids in school now it test 'em cause it's cheap, no one stops to listen unless it's the hot trend on Twitter, shared and liked on Facebook, dear Lord it's seems hell's gate we've entered...just I matter of time I guess until we all fall a

I TRUST YOU

I TRUST YOU! I trust you to make the smart decision(s) as those decisions pertain to our daughter. I trust you ensure that she is taken care of mentally, emotionally, and physically. We share the life of someone special. A child. A child given to us by God. A child. Better than money, better than cars, far superior to any drug induced high. One of the most beautiful gifts in this world is a child...and when blessed with one you must do your most for them. I trust that you will. So you have made mistakes and bad choices, that's okay...we all have. But for every mistake, you've done your fair share of things correct. I ask that you find a way to teach both (mistakes/correct) to our daughter. Explain each, provide detailed account...shit..show her the result of doing things the right and wrong way. Teach her how to be a woman...more than that...teach her how to be a responsible, goal oriented, over achieving, self reliant and efficient woman. Show her what it is like to be stron

Worth The Asking Price? (Rough Copy)

"Smooth car". That was my initial thought when saw this whatever it is car. "A yellow...yellow something..." Shaking my head. " Yellow." Hand on face. Biting lip. "Yellow Ferrari. A Yellow, topless, Ferarri." 

That when instantly I had a decision to make. 

Hard top or convertible. 

First questions I thought: "Does it come in hardtop and convertible, or is just a convertible? If does come in both, is the top hard or is made out of leather?" Mind you, I never once until just now have even inquired about the cost. I couldn't tell you how much I paid for it, but I can tell you that it's more than what I paid. Gas mileage, technology, interior, insurance not at all considered. No need to test drive, not worried about making the payments, 'cause I'm buying this with one signature. 

The showman is giving me all sorts of details about the history, the tradition, the all that professional type yadder, and all I can really

Self Paid

Should I do it FUCK 'EM they've had it coming to them from a while back so yeah I is: Self paid nigga doin' made nigga thangs, on the regular smoking trends for the funds, Self paid nigga doin' made nigga thangs on the FIB for the green for AHMES to lead the way Throwing yella diamonds in the air like I'm signed to Hov's team, whole team netting profits on a bracket bustin' theme, faded off the past leading futures is my thing, spinning tops is what I run through, ichimokui on my life shows I've broke trough clouds, no looking down! Self made nigga doin' made nigga thangs, on the regular smoking trends for the funds I'm just a self paid nigga doin' made nigga thangs on the FIB for the green AHMES I'm just a step away from fucking greatness, and if she'll let me I'll seed her with, luck nine months later a screaming successful baby boy, man I'm causing international percent change incidents when I lot the fucking

We Gon/Heart2Heart

<3-2-<3 We gone, We gon' We gone ride forever baby, Take it to whole new level on them lady, Me + You ='s FOREVER...oh ya-yay So sit back & let me sweet serenade you baby If you ever listened to my heart then my love you've always known, If you ever heard my voice then my love is always told, If you ever took the time to look my love always shown, If I share my heart with you I hope world just rides along, -Shift- We gon' rise forever, we-guh we-guh rise forever baby, I could never, I could never, I could never lose you never ever, ever, ever, ever, ever ever leave you times get rough I do what it takes to please you- Yep, We gone, ride for ever-ever, Treat me like a your sponge, I'm here to soak up all your pain, Know I may not be thug but I'll ride on any bank, shit I may not be hood but I'll bubble up that cake, shit I'm talking 'bout woulds & coulds, for you there ain't anythang I can't,

Activities

As I told you, I need help with my writing...so if and when I start to trail off the subject or the words appear to difficult to exist, just remember that I told so.. Begin: Is it a test? Thought or Theory.  Is it a riddle or a clue? Three rules I apply to everything are: #1 Anything is possible #2 Proof is as equal to evidence as is 1 in value in terms of relevance #3 Not every rule written, is every rule true The only reminder to maintained are that #'s mean everything. Pushing aside anything allows one to overtake all the remains, all that remains is limitless, thus no limits to what one can do. Now if I were to pose such an idea in the form of philosophical question, "If you could have a sat down with the future would you ask about the past?", how would those who only live for the moment find the time to answer with questioning the reasons?

Clarity Sans Meaning

As the eyes seek to define the architects' proof-wit-meaning view of the world words prognosticate a smattering of intrinsically motivated sights  subjugating chants twined artfully to infinitely clash mystically enticing strength by spirit rendering mental weak souls forever rift from rest as the talented amongst the few dilute care fueled waves collectively soil the drowning pond of forgotten thought deep lapses of gravel pave the way a'head logical definition buried a thousand streams beneath wrought for a wrath of cleverly placed uncovered shall bend minds translated the image stained upon the beating chest  forcing two to wander the relativity of pain a windfall of broken hearts claims connectivity to shame....Sold as is to the highest bidder a better life provided by the luminous ether living eternally incoherent throughout the rampant dream of glimmering lights.. *Sometimes what is most obvious is most obviously unclear...* WHO'S SAYING THIS?