Skip to main content

Ups and Downs

In the span of two months I've done seen, been through and overcome a got damn lot, life's ups outweighed by the downs but fuck them frowns I keep a smiling mouth, as I ink my thoughts I hope this helps someone somewhere in some got damn way somehow, spent two months in jail with no bail until them motherfuckers let me out, then I lost my aunt, the only person in the world who seemed to understand my thoughts (RIP Audrey),  damn I really miss you & love you lots, gained a nephew back in Feb but now in June his parents are splitting apart, wish I could save their love searching for the glue that bonds two hearts together when two minds are lost, celebrated the graduations of my little brother, and my two nieces hope I'm around to see the '15 of my future daughter inlaw, hope my son recognizes all his past failures are the foundation of future success the types of which few have known before, while I hope my brother puts it all together soon before he loses it all,  life's so up and down at the moment , feels like I'm surfing a tidal wave of stress trying to reach the shores of success, taking it one day at a time, each stride bringing me closer than the last, can I hold it all together of will I fall off the board and crash, will I ever make it happen or my have my chances already passed, just last night a man got shot two houses down from where my kids lay their heads, now I'm sitting here can't stop thinking what if them bullets would've missed the ups of my life could have been downed by a coward in a mask, I swear to God the whole block would been in body bags, I keep it peaceful all day but hurt my fam I'll kill that ass, it's times in the hood time to breakout another million dollar plan, now clue of where to start, so for now I'll tell my tale for free, while I read these college books, searching for meaning, questing for knowledge that I can use to one day reach the homes of the bold through the hearts of the weak, in this land of the brave I humbly embrace and face any and all challenges and challengers, fate of the world in my hands fire in my heart warms a society growing cold, I speak for souls worn and torn from the day by day facts and figures of people losing jobs and homes, kids killing kids, everyday life has turned into an all day mourn, struggle and strife delivering drunks in droves, pouring out of bars crashing cars in record numbers never ever seen before, some choose to give up and numb reality by popping pills, sipping lean, smoking sticky, and snorting lines to escape what I see and feel happening, yeah it seems the block is too hot from some to stop and think for just a second, blink for a second and see how distorted tomorrow looks, you're never fucked if you do but almost always fucked if you don't, while everybody's trying to get theirs at any cost, it feels at times as though I'm the only one willing to pay the cost to ensure that no one gets lost and all are involved, the ups and downs of life, as I speak these words I hope you feel them in hearts and minds....

Who you are, is who I am,
What you feel is what I say

Who's Saying This..

ME + YOU = The best

DREAM + IMAGINE = SUCCESS
Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

National Police Week – Who Cares?

I just found out that it’s: National Police Week, and now I’m hoping that one of you .’ s out there joins me and  doesn’t do anything to mess it up. Don’t be the one who kills a cop this week, don’t be the one that does it by accident or intentionally , and seriously to the following OFFENDERS : - middle aged guy , DO NOT go out and get drunk this week and  then crash into a cop on your way to another bar, and a – FELON ,Can you wait until NEXT WEEK to  “pull your strap”  and “ BAD COP ”, that cop who treats what he does as “just another job” and not as a commitment to protect & serve the community. As a matter of fact I’m “CALLING ALL COPS” ,Can ALL COPS EVERYWHERE just take a break on respond to any & all calls for a week & let a real POLICE Officer take the next one ...I mean can the Police just get the chance to stop holding his breath this week? Just for this one week, I’m sure it can’t be that hard..I mean if you have to do something, keep ...
1 comment
Read more

Inhale, Exhale

Uh-huh... Pass me that lighter.. Now turn me up a bit..                       "Click, click, click, click" "Inhale, exhale Inhale, exhale Inhale, exhale" Yeah I'm ready in tha tent time to flip off the suit slide soft cross sheets key 'em chillin off the loop in the fridge 'til I'm ready for that alphabet soup off the sauce in the pan if you get then you hand fail to follow then no cup for two my friend time ta Click, click, click, Inhale, exhale, Inhale, exhale, Inhale, exhale Soon as I spark it baby we goin' Waldoff, , soon as I light it we goin' Woolworth, , soon as I fire it up we taking off, so take it all gripin' grape til the papers tall token golden flakes in all drips seeing sugar walls wide as rulers whoatmosphere is thick gettin' looser by the foot Ajustawinner by the yard while they choking off my soot I'm getting closer to catching a bag full of falling stars buy...
Post a Comment
Read more

End of the Line

Where are you? Where have you gone? Why have you left me here all alone? Will you ever come back? Those are just a few of the questions that I ask myself each day that I open my eyes. WHY CAN’T I THINK ANYMORE? WHY CAN’T I UNDERSTAND ANYTHING? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? WHEN WILL IT ALL CLICK AND MAKE SENSE AGAIN? WHEN WILL MY STRUGGLING END? WHY CAN’T I JUST BE NORMAL LIKE EVERYONE ELSE? WHY AM I SO AFRAID? WHY AMI SO ASHAMED? WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE I AM CONSTANTLY ALONE? WHY DOESN’T ANYONE CARE? WHEN WILL SOMEONE LISTEN? WILL ANYONE EVER UNDERSTAND? My head is so full of questions, that the answers themselves are invisible… I can no longer continue to live my life the way that it is, and so I choose today, this moment, this time to put an end to way that it is. I’m tired of having to explain what I mean in order for other people to understand, I’m tired of trying to be what people expect while at same time failing to meet overall expectations. Tired o...
Post a Comment
Read more